So I heard this rumor yesterday. The rumor is that our group may be shifted to another organization. It seems that our SVP hired a new VP to handle all of the Report groups. Since we're nominally a Report group (although we do a bit more and we have more control of our architecture than a normal Report group) we could find ourselves reorged into a whole different section of the company.

My first reaction was that the're was no way that I'd go along with this. I like being part of the CCT group. I like our other teammates and I like Pickering. I don't want to move to some other section, even if our Report group goes together. It's just not a palatable idea.

Pickering hired me and I feel a lot of loyalty towards him. There's a certain amount of loyalty to the company, but that's just a thing. It's hard to feel loyalty to a thing. You can believe in an ideal but you can't feel loyal to it. You don't support an idea because you feel obligated, it's not a duty. You do it for other reasons.

Anyway, my loyalty is to Pick. I'd follow him to hell and all that. Having him no longer be in my chain of command would just be wrong. When I came to work here, I said to myself that I wouldn't even think about leaving until Pick left. I don't update my resume, I don't do test interviews just to have a feel for the job market. Whatever. I'm totally committed to working here.

And I would probably keep working if Pickering left via being promoted out of the chain of command or if he left amicable for other pursuits. But this has the feeling of being something that will be forced on us. And unless Pick explains everything and fully supports it then my morale will plummet.

This is just a rumor, and it didn't come from Pickering, so it could be nothing. We discussed it a bit, and none of use want to move out. Our company goes through too many reorgs, and the people who have been in previous ones (not me) say that it's quite draining and distracting.

If you just read the last journal entry and this one you may get the idea that I'm not happy here. And right now maybe I'm not. There's a lot of work to do and we're behind and it seems like things are starting to fall apart. I'm doing what I can and I've starting doing work on weekends. It's starting to be demoralizing. I need a break.

Working weekends and late is not unusual in this industry. When it becomes expected then your company is in trouble. It hasn't come down to that but I'm starting to feel the pressure. Oh, on a related issue, we're losing one team member who's being shifted to another team that's in more need of his services. We'll probably get a replacement, but the replacement will be used to help the other side of our project. So my side is down to me and someone else I can borrow part time.

I told Pickering when he asked me that I thought I could finish my side of the project by myself. Now it may come down to that. But there are still bug fixes, and the documentation, and more meetings. I just want to scream.