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When I entered 8th Grade all the smart kids were put into this new educational program called Gifted and Talented Education, or GATE as we called it. But it wasn't science or math based, well not really. The two GATE classes we took were English and I think History. Albert Einstein Middle School already had advanced classes for advanced Math and Science students, and a fair number of GATE kids were in those classes, but maybe half weren't.

We had one or two classes worth of GATE students. It was a long time ago so let's assume that everything I'm writing is as best as I can remember or what my mind deludes itself into remembering. The sixty or so kids in those two classes were pretty much the advanced kids when we went to Hiram Johnson High School. We did get an influx of bright kids from the other feeder middle school and over the course of 4 or 6 years I had a lot of classes with these people.

Angela Marie Cauch was just another girl in the GATE program. Since GATE wasn't hard science based we had a lot of girls actually. Brown haired, somewhat lithe and probably taller than me -- though back then (and even today) I don't really notice if people are taller than me, only that they're taller or shorter than other people I see -- a relatively normal looking pretty, white girl. Mostly I remember she had long straight brown hair that went down her back, unusually long for girls in my school.

I'm not too sure if Angela was in any of my math or science classes. I was an advanced student in those areas and she wasn't. But she was very bright and due to the close-knit GATE program, I think she was in all English/History classes in middle school and probably half those clases in high school. Back then I sat way in the back (and continued to do so until I met Fu Shawn in high school and he made me sit up front with him). Angela tended to sit farther up front. No regular contact, and I was very shy and hung out with my friends in any case.
Actually she was more than pretty. She was beautiful on the outside. But that's something she grew into during high school. What I noticed first was that she was beautiful on the inside. Our 8th grade English teacher, whose name I unforunately forgot, tended to experiment since this was a GATE class. Hey, she ran the after school roleplaying games club where I met the 6th person of our school clique, Jack Ren.

In 8th grade English we wrote in our journal during the first 10 minutes of class. This is where I started writing my 10-minute RPG fanzine. Amazing what you can think of in 10 minutes. Lots of new races and classes and monsters and short adventures and magic items (everything was AD&D back then). Even multi-part articles if I ran out of time. But I'm digressing.

Anyway, one day we had a visualization session in English class. Heads down, relax breath. The teacher talked us through the breathing thing, clearing our minds, picturing nothing. And then picturing a peaceful place, with a cabin. And she then asked us to detail it out and spend time in this peaceful place self actualizing or whatever we were supposed to do.

Naturally, being a guy I didn't take it that seriously. I had my octagonal cabin in the forest with a great computer setup and lots of defenses to repel invaders. Secret tunnel, game room, just a lot of stuff because this whole session was pretty much the whole 40 minutes of class. Although I could picture everything clearly I still couldn't make the leap and actually put myself there.

And then someone was crying. It was Angela. She was sitting on one of the front-left corner desks sobbing quietly to herself. I looked up, lots of kids looked up. Our teacher was comforting Angela, who apparently had gotten really into the whole exercise. That left an impression on me. And the first indication that I later came to realize that Angela was a very special person. The first hint that she was a lot more alive inside than I was.
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