I have a definite but low level dread watching a lot of dramas today because I often expect a character to get shot in the head with graphic blood spurt and all.

This began with Saving Private Ryan which has an intense opening sequence: D-Day at Omaha beach. Lots of people dying suddenly and rather graphically. It has other instances of graphic sudden death but that first scene is definitely the worst.

At the time I don't think it affected me that much but after that there seemed to be more movies with graphic sudden death and even tv shows were doing it (way toned down of course more like surprise suddenly killed without the graphic part).

The dread has slowly gotten a bit worse but not that bad. Like right now I'm watching Megan Leavey and she's been deployed to Iraq and I keep expecting bad things to happen at any time so I watch a few minutes and in some scenes I might watch without sound (I always have subtitles on) and only focus on the dialog not the rest of the screen.

This is a bit different than watching a horror movie -- I get the regular horror movie dread but there the gory deaths are expected. It's when I'm watching a regular show with a bit of a dramatic or quiet moment and I get a feeling of dread that someone is going to die even though that has in no way been hinted at.

I was watching an episode of New Amsterdam (#3.16 "Perspectives") that reminded me that my fear is a bit PTSD-like. In that episode a bunch of high school students got PTSD from a realistic shooter scenario that was run without warning (not even the teachers knew it was a drill).